Hitting walls today, trying to get things done and making no progress.  Bought snow tires, a year ago, no snow.... today snow, but Les Schwab tells me my "new" tires are not good.  I leave them there because i don't know what else to do.  I can't buy "new" ones.  Then i am told... get them back.... so i will try tomorrow.  in the meantime i buy chains because it is snowing and i must be able to get to work.  I am not looking forward to putting them on myself.... but when money is tight this is what we do.  right?  I realized i want the hard times to be over.  I want to be able to buy things when i need them.  It is supposed to get better.  I believe it will.  but sometimes i get a little weary.  the warrior is a child (Twi

Today i feel like i am on a treadmill.  Like nothing is happening.  Like life is at a standstill and i wonder how i can feel that way when so many good things are happening.  I think it is because i am so used to going all the time and considering so many schedules.  Now it is just my schedule, and it feels a little dull, because i am doing all i can and waiting.  I think i will try to have some fun while i wait for things to unfold.  Try not to be anxious and realize it is okay that i am focusing on myself.  It just feels so odd.  I wonder how long it will be like this?

I had the good fortune to puppy sit for my daughter and her husband over the weekend.  I fed and played with the horses, dogs and cat.  It was great fun, i love the farm, and i had really been thinking i missed it.  But by Monday morning i was very sore.... I forgot how much work it was to take care of kids, feed animals and keep the fire burning.  It was great fun for a weekend but i am extremely grateful to be living in a place of rest.  That was hard work