I guess this just goes to show that while living the dream, life still gets in the way. This week was our third show and there were some technical difficulties. Which is okay, but some other things got stirred up for me. Maybe this won't work. Maybe we will have to move to another staton. All the maybes and what ifs made it for a tough week. I realized some of my old fears were creeping up and trying to take over. It took a few days, but now i have decided to live as a participator not a victim. Problems can be resolved easily but the fear of losing all i have worked for sent me in a tailspin. That is the gremlin voice, who do you think you are to...... have a show, write a book, etc. It screams loud and what is worse, is, i listen and react. Today is a fresh start and i get to keep my dream, it is my choice I can stand up for myself and be empowered. How come i couldn't just know that from the beginning? How come i had to go through all the pain and then work of letting go AGAIN? it is all part of the process. I hope i am not alone.
Laurie Ann Hardie