Now that my daughter is begining to show, it makes me think about how far i have come. My child is becoming a parent, While i am starting the second half of my life. It is a very odd feeling. I was talking with a good friend today and we were talking about how we wouldn't want to be young again. I like where i am in my life, i think i am starting to find some peace with it.
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Met with a fellow single mom, her kids are still at home and helping with the bills. My friend works two jobs and still can't make it. What is wrong with this picture? My heart goes out to you single mom's who are breaking your neck to make a living. Hold on and know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It may seem like things will never get better but hold on. Allow others to help you and be there for you. The isolation is tough, no time for friends or family just work work work. Reach out for small meetings, by phone or a quick coffee with a friend.
I guess this just goes to show that while living the dream, life still gets in the way. This week was our third show and there were some technical difficulties. Which is okay, but some other things got stirred up for me. Maybe this won't work. Maybe we will have to move to another staton. All the maybes and what ifs made it for a tough week. I realized some of my old fears were creeping up and trying to take over. It took a few days, but now i have decided to live as a participator not a victim. Problems can be resolved easily but the fear of losing all i have worked for sent me in a tailspin. That is the gremlin voice, who do you think you are to...... have a show, write a book, etc. It screams loud and what is worse, is, i listen and react. Today is a fresh start and i get to keep my dream, it is my choice I can stand up for myself and be empowered. How come i couldn't just know that from the beginning? How come i had to go through all the pain and then work of letting go AGAIN? it is all part of the process. I hope i am not alone.
Research shows January is one of the toughest months of the year, including a high suicide rate. We made it through, it is February and the sun is shining where i live. Friend and coach Shannon Bruce posted on fb: "Hey women friends. Question for you: You juggle so many balls every day, right? Guess which one gets dropped the most? The ball named "you"! Stop it....Go ahead do one small thing for yourself today. Just like the McDonald's ad says, "You deserve a break today!" You'll be a better wife, mom, friend, business owner and more!" It is true, we put ourselves last, but when we take the time to take care of ourselves we are better for others. Funny huh, we think sacrificing ourselves makes us better for others and it drains us. Taking care of ourselves gives us energy. Try it, and thanks for the reminder Shannon. Post here how you did some thing nurturing for yourself today. I stayed in bed an extra half hour looking
Veronica called us on Coffee with the Coaches, Saturday's on KGNW 820 am or kgnw.com or get an app for your iphone to listen. She shares the struggle of being overwhelmed on the show about R to R. Reduce it to the Ridiculous. You don't have to do everything. When you are a single mom, the underwear may not get folded and the socks may not get sorted but those are small things to let go of when you look at the bigger picture. What can you let go of? One small step.
I have spent so much time looking ahead that it seems impossible that i am looking back at the debut of Coffee with the coaches radio show. It happened. I kept dreaming, kept taking baby steps in the midst of tough life circumstances and this phase of my dream is now realized. Don't give up. to hear the first show go to http://www.coffeewiththecoaches.com/
I am so excited. Coffee with the Coaches radio show launches this Saturday at 10am on KGNW 820 on the am dial. You can listen live on kgnw.com. I received the first chapter of my book after editing and that was amazing. And yet. I have a DEAR friend suffering depression. The loss of her mother and other huge struggles in her life. Another friend who is fighting the demons of "what are you doing? your dream is DUMB". Which it is NOT. It has so often been the other way around, me struggling as i watch friends realizing their dreams. It is wonderful and difficult to be in a good place when my friends are suffering, but i know that i can't let that stall me. I also know they would be furious if i thought for a moment i had to put off my happiness because they are in a bad place. What i do know is that i understand where they are and i can be a friend that weeps with the sorrowful. As i experience stepping into my dream I will never step away from the understanding of what it means to struggle. I am so blessed with AMAZING friends who have stood by me and I am honored to stand by them.
Yesterday was my first book interview. The show is called Head of the House. Hard to believe things are happening. Our show starts Saturday Coffee with the Coaches. Spent an hour with Danen talking about what he wants to do when he grows up. The Seahawks...
Today my business/coaching partner and I went to KGNW to sign contracts for Coffee with the Coaches. Four years ago i had a coaching show on KKNW and when the economy crashed so did my support. I was so disappointed and sad that i had to let it go. Now four years later, I not only have a partner to share the reponsibilities. We have people to voice the commercials and someone to run the board and answer phones. It makes me think about a time five years ago when i wanted to give up. I was passed over for one radio job after another. I was turned down for a gig i really had my heart set on and i said "that is it! I quit"! I was done, tired of the roller coaster, of the hurt and pain of rejection. Later that day i went to the Family Resource Center to meet with the big brothers and big sisters. I walked into a party in progress. I asked who it was for and they all said "YOU" "It's a pity party". Because of that party and all the love in the room. I was able to "buck" up and try again. I can hardly believe i am on the air everyday and about to start coffee with the coaches on air. I am so glad i didn't give up. Dreams do come true.
It is 2011 an odd year, which seem to be my better years. When i look back on last year i have so much to be grateful for and as i look ahead my baby steps are paying off. January 15th at 10 am My coaching partner and i are starting a weekly radio program on KGNW 820 am. http://www.coffeewiththecoaches.com/ In February or March the book will be finished and ready to be released. I have a day shift after the grueling overnight shift. My kids are graduated and grown and doing very well. Life is good. The tough times made me stronger and challenged my beliefs. I am a better person for all the struggles. What are you looking forward to this year? What are you grateful for? May you have a prosperous and happy New Year.
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